|Time With Tamika|
Relationships & Life
Death. What a word? It has such a negative connotation. People, animals, and plants die, really all living things have an end date. Why does that frighten us so much?? It is always the fear of the unknown that inhibits us from being and playing the game of life appropriately. I've had to experience the death of a loved one more often than I would like to. When my father died, something struck me after I cried endless hours alone in the darkness. I asked why, so many times I cannot even think of a an actual number. I was so sad inside. The sadness carried such a void, a real feeling of forget it all! Forget this life! Forget this world! Somehow with the grace of God, and with the spurts of energy I was given to wipe my tears and hide my sadness I kept going; I lived. The struggle of acceptance was a daily happening. Every moment, I just wanted it all to end. I wanted things to be different, but again, somehow I pushed forth. I cried, I yelled, I sat, I walked, I talked, I hid, I left myself, in order to cope. The truth is I did not begin to cope until I truly thought of what had happened. My dad was no longer here. All the dreams, and visions I had of him being in my life in the future were no more. So definite. So painful. I felt a spark, and suddenly I began to understand his soul, the light of his energy could guide me, and it has. When I need strength he is there. Such a blessing. I miss him like no other. He is and was my daddy, no matter what. He contributed to me being the person I am today. The love we share is gracious, pure, and unconditional. I love you Dad! Every moment I live, I grasp the fact that your soul has opened doors for me and thrust me into the realization that pain is all the same. That peering into the eyes of another is not only having the ability to see another, but you are seeing yourself. Your death taught me to feel, and to be the best that I can be. I love YOU!!!! I miss you!!!
Listen here, there is a serious epidemic of misunderstandings, miscommunications, lies, facades, and confusion. See what humans are accustomed to is protecting. Protecting themselves from pain, and only searching for pleasure, love, and approval, and most times it is all from the wrong people or things. Obviously things cannot provide what it is the human spirit desperately needs and survives with, but the confusion and misunderstandings stem from an everlasting attempt to gather "things" that momentarily fulfill the sensation of satisfaction. Then what? Unhappiness occurs. A feeling of being unsettled, lost, or an incredible amount of questions arise out of wonder. Wondering what is in store? What should I do? Where should I be? And with whom? Confusion is nothing more than an emotion caused by not wanting to make a decision, although, you truly do know the right answer. Confusion plies its hands into lives when your question has been answered, but it calls for a change, and you resist. Change is not an easy task, it is a transition to be better, and do better.
The lying to oneself about your own heart, and feelings is such a discouragement to yourself. Never sitting and being with yourself is killing oneself slowly, and literally causes such a disconnection to what matters. If I had a penny for every time someone called someone a friend that seriously did not even come close to the definition of a friend, or when someone says I love you when they really do not mean it. Forget pennies, how about a grain of dirt for every time I notice people being concerned with something that does not matter at all to the essence of who they are. Whether it be buying a new car, focusing on the appearance of another, speaking about their homes, and items that they have obtained over the years because of the financial status they obtained, I could literally make my own piece of land and use the pennies to pay for a new home. The point is, none of it is essential to your well being. Blessings they are, but treat them as such. My grandmother always tells me, it is hard for a rich man to go to heaven, not impossible, but hard. When you are rich you focus on the surface. The depths of anything is what matters; what cannot be seen, but felt. Being on both sides of the spectrum of life and understanding has helped me to understand the aspect of living humbly.
My greatest wish is for everyone to be honest with themselves about everything. How many real friends do you have? The others that are not, why are they in your life? What matters to you? What makes you truly happy, and are you happy now? Like for real?? If you were stuck on this planet and could only choose three people to be with, who would they be? And would those three people choose you as well? Just a thought, and when it is all said and done, misunderstandings, miscommunication, lies, facades, and confusion are present because the light of truth is not being released in its entirety. What a thought??!!
I know I'm not the only one that thinks about what if?? What if I did not meet that person? What if I went the other route? What if I simply just did not care?? The biggest what if for me, what if I died today?? What would happen? Would people care?? I think everyone wants to know they are needed and have a purpose to fulfill. We all want to feel that the world would be a different place without our physical presence, right?? In thinking about that last what if question, you have to think about the memories you have left behind, and the legacy of your name. My soul warrants the timing of generating favorable memories to the heart. I allow the universe to be one with me so I can achieve the growth I need. It is not easy. Most times to love, may mean to be ignored. To give, may mean you will not reap the rewards immediately. To ask questions, you get the answers, but maybe not the way you expected them to come. Emotionally I am breaking down because I can feel the emotions of so many others. I inhibit the pain of those I see, and those I love. I can see what most would probably not like for me to see. The pain of seeing, but to not be seen is probably the deepest pain one can ever experience. As I walk, breathe, and grow in this world, and realm of life, the only memory and destiny I hope to leave behind is to have acknowledged the depths and presence of those I have come in contact with. At the end, when it is all said and done, people want to know they are cared for. I promise with every fiber of my being, with every breath I take, those I have been blessed to be amongst have made more of an impression on me than I did them, and more than anything else, I remember, love and acknowledge their presence.
Thank you to YOU!!
It is about time a television show opens your world to a new perspective of what your soul feels. I was thrilled while watching Touch on FOX. I remember driving down Chicago streets seeing a billboard of squared images showing the premiere date of the series. I remember seeing the promotional preview commercials for the hopefully highly anticipated series premier and being eager to see it in its entirety. Although I was excited to watch it, I did not expect for it to be such a revelatory experience for me. The first episode I viewed ON Demand, courtesy of Comcast proved as a moving account of who I am, my own connections to the world and individuals and it gave me a reminder of how important every living being is to the world. Touch shows that having a voice does not necessarily mean speaking out loud. There are other means of communication. In the series a young boy, son of Kiefer Sutherland, has a gift of seeing the future through numbers. From birth, the young boy has never spoken, but the numbers he writes have connections to people across the world. His father, Kiefer Sutherland becomes the boys voice. It becomes his purpose and really his passion to be his son's mode of communication to the outside world. He is the messenger to prevent the negative from occurring. Keifer's son sees the world through numbers, but it his duty to interpret, then act on the messages to ensure good will is done. Graciously, Touch is a moving experience that relates everyone's life to one another. We need one another. Our lives intertwine to create such a powerful force of energy to encourage a message of pure connection...TOUCH. Our lives touch when we least expect it. For that reason, I appreciate you more than you could ever know. Thank you for your existence!
I remember having a deep conversation with a friend over a burger. We were discussing the world, and how people live so robotically. As I argued the fact that so many are so unsure, and making the wrong decisions based on what is so untrue to their spirits. He then said, "Ignorance is bliss..."
Is ignorance really bliss? Is it okay to live a life that does not reach your highest potential??? As you make the wrong decisions, most likely for selfish reasons, others are affected. The universe shifts to accommodate the changes that were not expected. We have an incredible responsibility to one another.... WE ARE HERE TO CHOOSE LOVE. Love is GOD, Love is whatever is right, love is what is sometimes complicated, but it is the truth. It is what gives, shows, opens, and is real. It is everything we live for. It is the driving force of human spirits. It is the energy that the entire universe is made from. When we choose against love, we choose what is not healthy. When one makes the wrong decision, we all suffer. Whether you choose to acknowledge it or not, the truth is, the karmic activity will soon be at your footsteps as well.
Struggling to continue, to see and to keep fighting, it is what I am here for. To show love, be love, and propel love.
If only you knew...it is not easy all the time...
LOVE YOU GREATLY!!!!
Author: Tamika Carlton
I am simply motivated, focused and always inspired!
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