|Time With Tamika|
Relationships & Life
Painted by Nikki Noble
What I am grateful for? Breath.
What makes me smile? Love.
What gives me life? Feeling the joys of the world.
What pains me? The dissatisfaction of everyone.
What do I see? The light.
I see YOU
What do I want you to be? Your best.
What frightens me? Not doing enough.
What do I appreciate? Nature, water, trees, good and bad. The twists and turns of life.
What do I hate? I hate nothing.
What do I wish for? For everyone to be free of illusions. To ignore distractions. To live their truth. To be one with what is... To be...
What do I want more than anything??? For you to...???? It has already been done.
So I literally just followed my feelings. Sitting here, whatever questions came to mind I wrote, and whatever was the first thought as my response, I wrote that too.
It is what it is...:)
Death. What a word? It has such a negative connotation. People, animals, and plants die, really all living things have an end date. Why does that frighten us so much?? It is always the fear of the unknown that inhibits us from being and playing the game of life appropriately. I've had to experience the death of a loved one more often than I would like to. When my father died, something struck me after I cried endless hours alone in the darkness. I asked why, so many times I cannot even think of a an actual number. I was so sad inside. The sadness carried such a void, a real feeling of forget it all! Forget this life! Forget this world! Somehow with the grace of God, and with the spurts of energy I was given to wipe my tears and hide my sadness I kept going; I lived. The struggle of acceptance was a daily happening. Every moment, I just wanted it all to end. I wanted things to be different, but again, somehow I pushed forth. I cried, I yelled, I sat, I walked, I talked, I hid, I left myself, in order to cope. The truth is I did not begin to cope until I truly thought of what had happened. My dad was no longer here. All the dreams, and visions I had of him being in my life in the future were no more. So definite. So painful. I felt a spark, and suddenly I began to understand his soul, the light of his energy could guide me, and it has. When I need strength he is there. Such a blessing. I miss him like no other. He is and was my daddy, no matter what. He contributed to me being the person I am today. The love we share is gracious, pure, and unconditional. I love you Dad! Every moment I live, I grasp the fact that your soul has opened doors for me and thrust me into the realization that pain is all the same. That peering into the eyes of another is not only having the ability to see another, but you are seeing yourself. Your death taught me to feel, and to be the best that I can be. I love YOU!!!! I miss you!!!
Stop questioning yourself so much, and certainly questioning the reasons why others do what they do will only lead you down a dark pathway. We can only control our own actions, and hope others act in relation to the way you act, not in how they perceive things to be. We have all been conditioned by our lifes happenings causing us to have deeply rooted beliefs about ourselves, and those around us. It is those beliefs that most times hold us back from the best that is within us. We cannot take things personally when people react to things that we have said, or who we are, the fact is almost 100% of the time it has nothing to do with you, but more to do with them.
I remember when my father died, I felt like I had so much left to say to him, but I could no longer release that to him face to face considering the unfortunate circumstances; he was no longer with me in the physical form. I made a promise to myself from that day forward to always speak what I feel no matter what, to whomever. Sometimes what needs to be said is not easy, nor is it exciting to be the one to have to say it, but it needs to be said. Not just for you, but for the other person as well. We hold so much back out of fear, and because it seems easier to hold back, but let me tell you, the truth really does set you free. It changes lives, it motivates, and moves you in the right direction. Suppressing your voice is like killing pieces of yourself everyday. It simply is not worth it.
On that note...I have some things to go release to some folks, sooooo I'm opening up the forum for you to do the same :)
It is time, and I know it will all be ok.
With love and great wishes!!
I know I'm not the only one that thinks about what if?? What if I did not meet that person? What if I went the other route? What if I simply just did not care?? The biggest what if for me, what if I died today?? What would happen? Would people care?? I think everyone wants to know they are needed and have a purpose to fulfill. We all want to feel that the world would be a different place without our physical presence, right?? In thinking about that last what if question, you have to think about the memories you have left behind, and the legacy of your name. My soul warrants the timing of generating favorable memories to the heart. I allow the universe to be one with me so I can achieve the growth I need. It is not easy. Most times to love, may mean to be ignored. To give, may mean you will not reap the rewards immediately. To ask questions, you get the answers, but maybe not the way you expected them to come. Emotionally I am breaking down because I can feel the emotions of so many others. I inhibit the pain of those I see, and those I love. I can see what most would probably not like for me to see. The pain of seeing, but to not be seen is probably the deepest pain one can ever experience. As I walk, breathe, and grow in this world, and realm of life, the only memory and destiny I hope to leave behind is to have acknowledged the depths and presence of those I have come in contact with. At the end, when it is all said and done, people want to know they are cared for. I promise with every fiber of my being, with every breath I take, those I have been blessed to be amongst have made more of an impression on me than I did them, and more than anything else, I remember, love and acknowledge their presence.
Thank you to YOU!!
I figured I better share while I am in the mood to, this type of mood does not happen very often. I created a video awhile back to have a visual representation of what The Oprah Winfrey Show has meant to me. It is more than most could understand, but it is the truth. In the meantime....watch the video to get a greater understanding and please let me know what you think,
The truth is not always easy to acknowledge nor is it meant to be. Revealing the truth means growth for yourself. We all have an intuition, we all have our subconscious but we all seem to ignore them both at times. We know what we really want, with whom we should be around, and what we should really be doing, but the truth is we bury the facts from ourselves, hiding from the movement of change, and allowing what is wrong to inhibit us from being our true selves. We flounder in falsehood, prolong our powerful paths, and overlook the obvious. Why??? Comfort can cause catastrophe. Our job is to prevent the pain from coming by following the truth, listening to our hearts, and acknowledging the breaths of information pumping through us in every single moment of the day. The moments are blessings because they are opportunities. Our bodies live automatically, pulsing through this life on auto-pilot. On the other hand, the soul of ourselves preciously awaits its moment to shine. Destined to spread its magnificence, it prompts you to do, and be yourself through truth, but you have to have the courage to release, reveal, and revel in it. Then everything will fall, piece by piece by piece, into its perfect place.
Author: Tamika Carlton
I am simply motivated, focused and always inspired!
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