|Time With Tamika|
Relationships & Life
Painted by Nikki Noble
What I am grateful for? Breath.
What makes me smile? Love.
What gives me life? Feeling the joys of the world.
What pains me? The dissatisfaction of everyone.
What do I see? The light.
I see YOU
What do I want you to be? Your best.
What frightens me? Not doing enough.
What do I appreciate? Nature, water, trees, good and bad. The twists and turns of life.
What do I hate? I hate nothing.
What do I wish for? For everyone to be free of illusions. To ignore distractions. To live their truth. To be one with what is... To be...
What do I want more than anything??? For you to...???? It has already been done.
So I literally just followed my feelings. Sitting here, whatever questions came to mind I wrote, and whatever was the first thought as my response, I wrote that too.
It is what it is...:)
Listen here, there is a serious epidemic of misunderstandings, miscommunications, lies, facades, and confusion. See what humans are accustomed to is protecting. Protecting themselves from pain, and only searching for pleasure, love, and approval, and most times it is all from the wrong people or things. Obviously things cannot provide what it is the human spirit desperately needs and survives with, but the confusion and misunderstandings stem from an everlasting attempt to gather "things" that momentarily fulfill the sensation of satisfaction. Then what? Unhappiness occurs. A feeling of being unsettled, lost, or an incredible amount of questions arise out of wonder. Wondering what is in store? What should I do? Where should I be? And with whom? Confusion is nothing more than an emotion caused by not wanting to make a decision, although, you truly do know the right answer. Confusion plies its hands into lives when your question has been answered, but it calls for a change, and you resist. Change is not an easy task, it is a transition to be better, and do better.
The lying to oneself about your own heart, and feelings is such a discouragement to yourself. Never sitting and being with yourself is killing oneself slowly, and literally causes such a disconnection to what matters. If I had a penny for every time someone called someone a friend that seriously did not even come close to the definition of a friend, or when someone says I love you when they really do not mean it. Forget pennies, how about a grain of dirt for every time I notice people being concerned with something that does not matter at all to the essence of who they are. Whether it be buying a new car, focusing on the appearance of another, speaking about their homes, and items that they have obtained over the years because of the financial status they obtained, I could literally make my own piece of land and use the pennies to pay for a new home. The point is, none of it is essential to your well being. Blessings they are, but treat them as such. My grandmother always tells me, it is hard for a rich man to go to heaven, not impossible, but hard. When you are rich you focus on the surface. The depths of anything is what matters; what cannot be seen, but felt. Being on both sides of the spectrum of life and understanding has helped me to understand the aspect of living humbly.
My greatest wish is for everyone to be honest with themselves about everything. How many real friends do you have? The others that are not, why are they in your life? What matters to you? What makes you truly happy, and are you happy now? Like for real?? If you were stuck on this planet and could only choose three people to be with, who would they be? And would those three people choose you as well? Just a thought, and when it is all said and done, misunderstandings, miscommunication, lies, facades, and confusion are present because the light of truth is not being released in its entirety. What a thought??!!
I loved once, so much so I would have done anything to show you how much love I had to give to you unconditionally. I sacrificed, I cared, I gave all of me, just so you could understand and grasp the reality of what love is. Even through the resistance, I fought for you. I had so much faith in you. I understood your pain, and wanted to let you know although you no longer believed in love, I would show you otherwise by doing all that I could. I was hurt in the midst of the fighting for what I believed was all you needed to move forward in your life. You knew but the depths of your pain, the darkness wanted to hold you back. The battle of being loved caused you to relinquish your power and not see the truth. The truth is you wanted it all, but did not know how to accept it. IN the end you pushed me away. You shoved your pain onto my chest, thrusting and causing me to hurt. How much can I fight? How much can one endure before I break? How much can I give, before my heart begins to beat differently? It beats in remembrance of how much love Ihave to share. How many people are waiting for my love to be given to them. Wasting time shifts the universe, and the universes plan has only a moment to be its best, its highest. I will shift to cater to those ready for acceptance. I am moving on in hopes that my love has been placed in your heart, but now it is time for me to love you from afar.
I will always and forever love you...no matter what. That is my promise.
I know I'm not the only one that thinks about what if?? What if I did not meet that person? What if I went the other route? What if I simply just did not care?? The biggest what if for me, what if I died today?? What would happen? Would people care?? I think everyone wants to know they are needed and have a purpose to fulfill. We all want to feel that the world would be a different place without our physical presence, right?? In thinking about that last what if question, you have to think about the memories you have left behind, and the legacy of your name. My soul warrants the timing of generating favorable memories to the heart. I allow the universe to be one with me so I can achieve the growth I need. It is not easy. Most times to love, may mean to be ignored. To give, may mean you will not reap the rewards immediately. To ask questions, you get the answers, but maybe not the way you expected them to come. Emotionally I am breaking down because I can feel the emotions of so many others. I inhibit the pain of those I see, and those I love. I can see what most would probably not like for me to see. The pain of seeing, but to not be seen is probably the deepest pain one can ever experience. As I walk, breathe, and grow in this world, and realm of life, the only memory and destiny I hope to leave behind is to have acknowledged the depths and presence of those I have come in contact with. At the end, when it is all said and done, people want to know they are cared for. I promise with every fiber of my being, with every breath I take, those I have been blessed to be amongst have made more of an impression on me than I did them, and more than anything else, I remember, love and acknowledge their presence.
Thank you to YOU!!
I'm thankful for the love that has developed in the world. I'm grateful for good and bad simply so we can tell the difference between the two. I am happy to be present to see when those that are meant to be in your life should be, and well, the others can be eliminated. The truth is we are all fighting for love whether we acknowledge it or not, we are looking to be saved from the sadness we feel in moments. When that happens the person we were is moved to believe in even better things. That moves inspiration. It causes pain to cease and happiness to emerge within the soul of the universe. Love surrounds us and when it all breaks down, that is all that matters. Remember your angels because they will ALWAYS remember YOU.
Please help and donate to my best friend and angel so her life can be saved. Pass it on
I figured I better share while I am in the mood to, this type of mood does not happen very often. I created a video awhile back to have a visual representation of what The Oprah Winfrey Show has meant to me. It is more than most could understand, but it is the truth. In the meantime....watch the video to get a greater understanding and please let me know what you think,
It is about time a television show opens your world to a new perspective of what your soul feels. I was thrilled while watching Touch on FOX. I remember driving down Chicago streets seeing a billboard of squared images showing the premiere date of the series. I remember seeing the promotional preview commercials for the hopefully highly anticipated series premier and being eager to see it in its entirety. Although I was excited to watch it, I did not expect for it to be such a revelatory experience for me. The first episode I viewed ON Demand, courtesy of Comcast proved as a moving account of who I am, my own connections to the world and individuals and it gave me a reminder of how important every living being is to the world. Touch shows that having a voice does not necessarily mean speaking out loud. There are other means of communication. In the series a young boy, son of Kiefer Sutherland, has a gift of seeing the future through numbers. From birth, the young boy has never spoken, but the numbers he writes have connections to people across the world. His father, Kiefer Sutherland becomes the boys voice. It becomes his purpose and really his passion to be his son's mode of communication to the outside world. He is the messenger to prevent the negative from occurring. Keifer's son sees the world through numbers, but it his duty to interpret, then act on the messages to ensure good will is done. Graciously, Touch is a moving experience that relates everyone's life to one another. We need one another. Our lives intertwine to create such a powerful force of energy to encourage a message of pure connection...TOUCH. Our lives touch when we least expect it. For that reason, I appreciate you more than you could ever know. Thank you for your existence!
As much as Facebook is attempting to give us all the opportunity to have instant connections with those that matters....it is not. With all the days, hours and minutes we and you spend on social networking sites what are the main purposes behind it all? Everyone wants to be related to one another and to have a like mind with those that once were far-fetched. Now everyone is so accessible causing us to understand the forces of being one. but as with anything that really matters in the world we choose to ignore the signs. So many ways to connect, but we would rather spill about what honestly does not matter at all. What matters most is the love we share, and the passion we seek to endure. The pain of pressing through is your inner being thrusting individuals to see. Most do not see though, and for that reason we are living in the current world we are in. Let me tell you, things are and will happen that most are not prepared for mentally, emotionally and spiritually. We all feel it. We all know something is not right, but we ignore it. Just wait....
Author: Tamika Carlton
I am simply motivated, focused and always inspired!
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