|Time With Tamika|
Relationships & Life
Death. What a word? It has such a negative connotation. People, animals, and plants die, really all living things have an end date. Why does that frighten us so much?? It is always the fear of the unknown that inhibits us from being and playing the game of life appropriately. I've had to experience the death of a loved one more often than I would like to. When my father died, something struck me after I cried endless hours alone in the darkness. I asked why, so many times I cannot even think of a an actual number. I was so sad inside. The sadness carried such a void, a real feeling of forget it all! Forget this life! Forget this world! Somehow with the grace of God, and with the spurts of energy I was given to wipe my tears and hide my sadness I kept going; I lived. The struggle of acceptance was a daily happening. Every moment, I just wanted it all to end. I wanted things to be different, but again, somehow I pushed forth. I cried, I yelled, I sat, I walked, I talked, I hid, I left myself, in order to cope. The truth is I did not begin to cope until I truly thought of what had happened. My dad was no longer here. All the dreams, and visions I had of him being in my life in the future were no more. So definite. So painful. I felt a spark, and suddenly I began to understand his soul, the light of his energy could guide me, and it has. When I need strength he is there. Such a blessing. I miss him like no other. He is and was my daddy, no matter what. He contributed to me being the person I am today. The love we share is gracious, pure, and unconditional. I love you Dad! Every moment I live, I grasp the fact that your soul has opened doors for me and thrust me into the realization that pain is all the same. That peering into the eyes of another is not only having the ability to see another, but you are seeing yourself. Your death taught me to feel, and to be the best that I can be. I love YOU!!!! I miss you!!!
Spiritual teachers around the world will tell you that every day brings an opportunity to learn and grow. To find the answers to certain things that you may seek. I believe this wholeheartedly. Every-thing depends on your awareness, and your acceptance level. Lessons are like hidden treasures that have the innate power to fill voids. Voids that have been present and will continue to be present if not ready to feel and appreciate the glory of an answer. You know something? When I wake in the morning, as I roll over to silence my alarm clock, I have a feeling, initially it is a feeling that I am tired, tired of doing, and going only to be disappointed. I am so eery to see the sadness in others although they are attempting to mask it. I'm tired of being in a place of staying positive, and optimistic when others have a hard time speaking, and admitting their truth. I understand the difficulties of going when you don't want to, but when it all boils down to the present moment, there is no time for you to feel this way, so I choose to face the day head on. I apply myself to the fullest because I get that my doing so can trigger another to do the same, and the domino effect begins. That right there is enough motivation to get up. I'm pretty sure that is the only motivating force driving me to wake and push forth. I know the domino effect of positivity is stronger than any darkness and that light will ALWAYS prevail- NO MATTER WHAT!
Author: Tamika Carlton
I am simply motivated, focused and always inspired!
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