|Time With Tamika|
Relationships & Life
Why does it hurt so bad when you express all of your feelings, and you are left to wonder what the other person may feel? I give my everything through my words, especially when I write so when I expose my feelings to another, and they do not respond, I cannot explain how much that causes me to question so much. In my soul, I know I have done the right thing, but it makes me sick not knowing how my words make another feel. I've always been that way. What am I to do? Does the other person ever think about how I may feel? I have to remember...ITS NOT ABOUT ME! Why will they not just tell me how they feel? I know I can be pretty blunt. I know my words have power behind them, but all I want is for people to feel the purpose, and truly understand my intention. I've learned though, not to expect anything from anyone. You do what you feel, and you must let go in order to be okay with you. I wish someone could just give me a manual on how to let go, that would be tremendously helpful to me, and so many others.
So I think it is quite hilarious that people fail to realize that everything is a choice. I am consciously aware of my mood changes and attitudes. I choose to do what I want, and of course what I do not want. I live my life with a great depth of understanding that every single thing I do is a reflection of who I really am. That is why whenever I choose to do something, even when I would rather not, I make a decision to do it well. I put my all into every aspect of my life. In times when I do not, I am left to feel a bit disappointed in myself for the simple fact that I know I am better than that. I think a great lesson is knowing that regardless of how another may react to your actions, you are the one that has to deal, and live with your choices forever. So in order to be successful and happy in the life that you choose to live, being present and conscious enough to represent the best of yourself in every moment is a definite necessity. I think people feel like what I do is always for them. The truth is-not so much. In the depths of who I am, my choices reveal the truth that I represent... a piece of every living being on this planet. My attitudes can either conform to others behaviors or be shaped by my own thoughts and perspectives. I incorporate a tad bit of both. It levels me. I know what people want. I can see what they expect. If you allow yourself to be one with what is, you will see as well. I write this entry to share that your choices are so important to not only you, but to the well being of the entire human race. When you are lacking, we are all lacking. When you do not choose wisely, it has a mirror effect on us all. No matter what another may think they want, I give them what their souls desire. That is the depth of who we really are. I challenge everyone to see eachother more, and accept eachother for the unique being that they are. That in itself will propel us all to rock with the best that is!!! :-)
I value the universe and all that it is. I love the world and all its complex beauty. I truly do. I foster a positivie mood that sustains my happiness as well as others. As of now though, I am really getting tired of the snow. Snow used to be so pretty. To see the white fluffly flakes fall to the ground was amusing. I remember being a child and wanting to make snow angels or add juice to the fresh snow to make an exciting homemade flavored snow cone. Now that I am older and have to live and continue to move in the world no matter the weather, I am over it. Seriously, it makes you think, what is going on with the environment? I'm in Chicago and just days ago a blizzard occurred giving the city about four feet to shovel out of. As I rolled over this morning to look out the window, low and behold there was about another two inches to add to the excitement. I cannot wait until it all just melts. In the meantime, I will appreciate the fact that I am alive to see it all, and most importantly feel it all. I suppose all is well as long as you consider it to be. :)
Author: Tamika Carlton
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